Looking to Make Friends

Most of my problems in life are generated due to the fact that I’m not out enjoying life and making friends. It has been that way for most of my life. Some of that is due the fact that I don’t own a car because of financial issues and the fact that I don’t have a license to drive to get out more often. The problem is also due to the fact that I’m shy and feel nervous around people that I don’t know or don't feel confident in myself.

I've been wanting to try and meet new people for a while. Lately, I've been trying to trying to see if I could meet new people on the internet after trying the bar scene and that hasn't worked either. I feel like I've given up at times but I always still have the urge to enjoy life and not feel alone.

I was wondering if anyone has any ideas on how to meet new people. I’m looking to get more often and enjoy life for it’s supposed to be and break out of shyness. Comment me here, if you have any suggestions.

Music That I'm Currently Listening to Right Now

It’s me again. It’s been a while since I’ve blogged here. One of the major reasons that I stopped blogging here because I've been busy with other things.

What made me come back to writing this blog was the fact that I want to talk about some of my likes along with some of the things that go on in my daily life. Like for instance, I’m going to focus on talking about a little bit of what I’m currently listening to on my MP3 player. Music has always helped me calm myself down through all the stress. My music can be loud at times but it’s also helped me get through some rough times and focus on something else.

“Nightwish” is one of those bands that I never get tired of listening to it. They’re a symphonic metal band out of Norway. Whether it’s the earlier stuff with their original lead singer Tarja or latest live album with their new lead singer Floor Jensen, the vocals helps make their music so good to listening to along with their sound. It makes you feel like you’re in another place.

The next artist is totally different from Nightwish.

Pharrell William is one of those artist that always seems to gather my attention. Whether he was in N.E.R.D or his work as a composer. His music always have this upbeat rhythm to them. This was the case with his big solo hit Happy. It’s a song that grabbed my attention from the first time I heard it while watching Despicable Me 2. Its s song that makes me have an upbeat mood towards things even when I’m dreading my job.

The last one represents my wild side with “In this Moment”. This is a band that I was first into back in 2008 when their song “This Moment” was used in a low budget horror film called “Beneath the Surface”. After that, I forgot about the band until I came across the song “Blood” on Youtube. That song blew me away. I managed to pick up the album at my local Newbury Comics, when I found a used copy there months back. After listening to the album I was totally blown away with this. It’s a across between Lady Gaga and Marylyn Manson Couple that with their latest live ablum, its one of my listen things on my MP3 player.

I Wish

After one of my recent blowups, I began thinking about various things that aren’t happening in my life. Don’t worry, I’m not going to do anything stupid. 

I wish, I was able to communicate better with other people.

I wish, I had good eye contact with everyone.

I wish, I had people around my age to talk to.

I wish, I didn’t blow up when stuff I need get broken.

I wish, my heart wasn’t filled with sadness.

I wish people understood me.

I wish, I was more outgoing.

I wish, I had more of a positive personality.

I wish I was waking up in bed with my true love.

I wish, I wasn’t overweight.

I wish, I had a lot of friends.

I wish, I wasn’t living in a bubble.

I wish, I wasn’t dependent on my parents.

I wish, I wasn’t nervous around people.

I wish, my all my problems went away.

I wish, I was happy.

I wish, I wasn’t alone when out on Friday nights.

I wish, I wasn’t depressed most of the time.

I wish money wasn’t an issue.

I wish, I was normal like other people.

I wish the little things didn’t bother me.

I wish most of my life was a bad dream.

Introduction

I figured that I try something out with this new blog site.  “Anthony’s Random Thoughts” is going to be something where I talk about other things in life. It ranges in various topics like life, news stories, movies, sports, lists or anything in particular that I want to talk about. 

I’m going to start off by talking about why I’m doing this. It took me a while on deciding, if I really want to do this. I recently decided to do this, because I sometimes need to get stuff off my chest either in a positive or negative way. Sometimes it can be a long post or short one like this one here. I hope that this can be a fun experience for me and something that you enjoy spending your time reading.

Before I end this post I want to talk about myself, so you get an understanding of who I am. I’m a person that suffers from depression and social disorder that might be directed to Asperger’s Syndrome, which is a rare form of autism. I also have a weight problem, which has plagued me for most of my life. I hope to talk about it more in the future along with other stuff sometimes fun or serious that comes along my way. 

I’ll try to regularly update this as I can. Thank you for checking this out and have a good day.